Goodbye 2009 :) Hello 2010 :)

Its hard to think that today is the last day of 2009. So many things happened this year. Both good and bad. That's what life is about. There will be amazing things that will walk into your life and then there will be the worst of worst that happen but as long as you stay true to yourself things will turn out. One of the best things that happened this year was my movie audition. Although i didn't get the part, that's fine its just pretty cool to say i auditioned for a movie. I'm not even going to mention the bad things because for one its not worth it. And for two the good outweighs the bad by far. So a good year came and went and now get ready for a good year 2010!!!

Christmas :)

Its that time of year again and it makes me so happy. You get to see the joy in every ones faces and they see what they get this year. It is also a time for when family's get together. I have so much fun with mine. This year also holds many things to do. I have so many different plans to hang out with people. We are planning some pretty crazy things and it will be so exciting :) Then there is always new years eve. I love that so much. I have a tradition for new years and that is hanging out with my friend Jalen. We always have so much fun together no matter what we are doing. So get ready cause this Christmas Break will be one to remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We have a lot of work to do!

Today was our first trial. We went against the Varsity defense. It was a shaky trial, as it just being our first. I had first finished all my things yesterday night. That wasnt a good idea. But we pulled through some how, like we always do. We didnt get to finish our trial because some people had another thing that they already comitied to doing. So anyways at the beginning i gave the opening statement. It was rocky but i made it through it. Then i get to my direct of my witness. Who happens to be Annabelle. She really didnt know her stuff today so every question i asked was a leading question. Which is a big no-no in direct. Luckily Maddie was being nice and not objecting. It was pretty funny. Then Aaron took the stand. He is always funny when answering question. He doesnt really answer the question fully. So anyway first time is always interesting. We will get better though!

Horoscopes :)

Some people may believe in them and some may not. But from me I do sometimes. There those days when its like what is it talking about my day was the total opposite. But then there are those days when its like OMG that is so totally true and scary how true it is. Some days I will look at it and just skim because its not really a good one. Or i wont like it and don't want my day to turn out that way. So i close it hoping that's not what is going to happen. Then there are days like today when you want to run and hide from your computer because your afraid its stalking you. You kinda have to ask yourself how does it even know these things? Why is it so right some days? I really don't get it but yet i still look at them. I'm a nerd :)

Homework!

Alright so this is typical of teachers. They start of the year really easy without a lot of homework. But now as the year goes on i start having more and more. I feel like my life is devoted to homework and because i like to strive to be the best i can be i take me time. Even if it means staying up way later than i should. Right now i have so much homework and a lot of it is due Monday. It is right before break to so all the teachers squeeze in more homework. Which i don't get because break is time to see family, not doing homework everyday. I don't get why the teachers cant spread the homework out. This would make it a lot easier on everybody.

Stacia's House

Oh boy. Going to Stacia's house is always an interesting experience. A good interesting experience though. We do anything you can really imagine. Let me list a few things.
1.Watch scary movies
2.Bake giant cookies
3.Have noodle fits
4.Go swimming and hot tubbing
5.Play Mtn. Dew pong
6.Run in the snow after being in the hot tub
7.Have boys over
8.Oh wait more boys come over
9.Eat yummy food (thanks to her mom)
10.PLay Apples to Apples
Thats just ten reasons why its so much fun. Each of those comes with a story. One that will last a lifetime. I hope we can make more memories in the future together. :)

Dance Dance Dance!!!

Last weekend and this weekend I had a dance show. Our November show went very well. We only had a couple of wardrobe problems but easy to fix in a hurry back stage. It is so much fun to get all that make up on for awhile. I love the affect of fake eyelashes on stage, but putting them on isn't so much fun. Then afterward some of us went out to eat at applebee's which was very fun. Then this weekend we had another dance show. One where studios in the area come together for a performance. I was super excited because my friends came to see me. Not that many of my friends have ever came to see me. So, that was really special to me. I don't think they know how excited and happy i was to see them there. Thank you!!

Bonding Time!!

So tonight Amy, Kayla, Whitney, and i had dance. It was a dress rehearsal for Sundays show at three. BE THERE. Then after practice we all came back to my house and just sat and talked and ate some munchies. For one of the dances you see our feet so we painted our toes. French manicures:) yay! We know no one in the audience can see it but it makes us feel better. As we are painting our nails we watched parts of West Side Story. It was funny because while painting our nails i have nail dryer and Whitney goes Macy why did you get out hair spray. hahhaah. she can be blonde sometimes. I think we should so this more often. I love my DE girls!

Ohh The Joys Of Shopping!

Its Thursday night and we are figuring out our game plan and what everyone wants. Then most of us just stay up all night because its to hard to wake up then in the morning. Two in the morning comes around and we are getting ready to go. This year our destination was Austin. There were many things that we needed to get at Target. I went with my cousin though and we went to Wal-Mart. Boy was it crazy. I was walking down the isle and this lady run into someone else. The same lady was also complaining that some other person took the last scooter. I just laughed Christmas isn't supposed to be just about presents but family getting together and such. But anyways at Wal-Mart you had to wait in lines to get things. I think i waited an hour to get a GPS. I talked to some random people while standing there. Then after Wal-Mart we went to Shopko and Herbergers. I really have no idea why i do this every year. I guess its just because i think its funny to watch people run for things. I guess that's the Christmas spirit now.

Cast Partys :)

You have to love them. They bring so much joy to my life. Friday night is Stonekings house. This was the 8th time they have had it. We all pretty much play games there. It is super funny watching people scream at each other. The first game was battle of the sexes. I didn't play. Boys on one side, Girls on the other. Each side yelling at each other to get the question right. Then catch phase comes out. More screaming and yelling at your partner to get the thing right. I'm surprised no one calls the cops because its so loud. Saturday was Petersen's house this year. Ah good times. We got a little tour of there big amazing house. (My favorite part was the secret room.) Then just a little Nerf gun war. It was epic. I shoot, it hits the wall, then gets stuck on Claire's head. Funny. Then a little tradition that started last year. ;) To top it all off we ended the night at Perkins. I couldn't have asked for a better weekend.

Good Day!?

It's opening night tonight for the musical and I'm so pumped. It going to be so much fun. I love seeing the faces of the young ones when we run out on the first song. It puts so much joy on me. Then after the show is done we all go to Applebees for our little cast party. The best part is what happens at midnight....NEW MOON. I really hope it will be better than twilight even though twilight was still good. That's what i am waiting for. Those things give me a chance to get away from reality, if only for a couple of hours. The reason for the question mark is simply this, today i woke up thinking it was going to be a good day little did i no it wasn't. School goes good for awhile everyday and then bam its like how could your friends do that to you. It like walking through a school with tons of people having no one ever care who. Its been one of those days. I hope this day gets better. (But my mommy says a bad day is when someone has to have cancer treatment so i guess today isn't so bad after all.)

Do we already have to do that?

It starts coming once you enter high school. Theirs no turning back. It is only pushed a little your freshman year. This thing I'm talking about is COLLEGE. Now this year i have gotten college mail, that didn't happen last year. They send me things saying we want you to come to our school. I don't even know what i want to do yet. I have also gotten a call from a college to meet with them!! I am only a sophomore i have no idea where i want to go much less sit down with a rep and talk to them. It keeps getting earlier and earlier, planning for college. I would just like to get through high school first. I do have two plans for what i would maybe want to do. I still have two years to decide, and i will take my time deciding. But for now I'm just going to take in the whole high school experience.

Paranormal Activity :)

Friends on both sides of me. I'm holding both there hands. I think its going to be a scary movie. So many crazy things happened in the movie. I think i screamed like at least two times. I wasn't really sure why i went. We got out of the movie and i was a little freaked but not to bad. On the way home i was fine to. Then i actually got home and started to tell my mom about the movie and then it kinda freaked me out. But luckily Kelly texted me and said some of it was fake. So that helped. I'm okay now...everyone should go see it. Some say its scary others dont. For me it was in between.

Spinning!

I have tried three times to write this blog and each time it isn't good enough. They seem to go all over the place and never stick to one subject. That may be because my mind is going a crazy. It is in full spin mode. I can't focus on one subject, so i decided to write this blog to maybe clear my mind. Most things on my mind are school related. There are some friend things. The school things are: Is G.Nels going to help with a couple problems or get mad that i didn't do them? Is the musical going to get pulled together or is it just going to be okay? The friend things are: Why do you always have to be mean to me when all i do is try so hard for you. I try never to step on your toes and always try to make your life a little easier everyday. The only other friend thing is: Did you really lie to me for a good portion of the time in which we were friends? Why and how could you do that when i was nothing but honest with you? That's about it, these are the questions that ponder my mind. But now it's more clear. I'm glad i wrote this blog! :)

Church! Church?

Before i write this blog let me say i believe in Christ. I believe what the bible tells us. I was confirmed and for all the right reasons. But some people don't believe in him and that is of there own choice. People shouldn't force Christ on them. There may come a time when they ask for his help. But they need to figure it out on there own. Some people worship Christ all day every day. These are the people that frustrate me. I really don't think that they need to tell everyone about Christ all the time. When we are at school it is a time for learning, i don't want people trying to shove the bible down my throat. In my personal opinion like i have said before people need to grow with Christ on there own, not be forced to believe.

Halloween :) 09'

Wow! This year was so amazing. I loved the people i was with. We all went as cowgirls.....one of us didn't get the memo though. Before we got ready though we all were jumping on Katie's bed and laying everywhere. It was really fun. Then time to get ready :) Pictures at Morgan's house because it is super pretty. Then we all went to the dance. I would have to say it was a little bit better than school dances. Then scary movies. That was pretty much it. Oh but i can't forget the 2 houses we trick or treated at. Then next morning was even better. Only because we watched Gossip Girl!!

Scary Movies!

I have this new things with scary movies. I never used to like them because i didn't like when the people jumped out at you. Now i think some of them are funny. It's also funny to watch your friends jump and scream when they get scared. I have seen so many scary movies over the past weekends. Some of them are: Saw, Haunting in Connecticut, The Last House on the Left, P2. There are always the same two people that i watched all of the above with. They are Kelsey Loverink and Colleen Thompson. :)

She is....

The girl in the photo is:

Always there for me....Will listen to my joys, angers, problems....Makes me laugh.....Gives me rides if my parents for get me.....Never ever makes me mad at her......

The girl in the photo is not:

My friend or best friend....

This girl is (like) my sister! She will never let me down. About a year ago we started to get really close and it never faded. To this day we are still so very close. She will always be in my life no matter what. We have had so many memories together. We also have many more to come. Next year will be the hardest memory of all, she is going away to college. I will get through it and so will she. Oh and i forget to tell you who she is.... Her name is Whitney Walker aka. Squirrel

Series of Unfortunate Events

It seems like a normal Friday night. Chelsea came to pick me up for the choir concert. Everything went well we all sang really good. Then Chelsea was going to give me a ride home. We had fun walking to her car. I get there and see that the glove compartment box is open.. I asked Chelsea if we opened it. Then I reached down to where her wallet was...It was gone. Someone broke into her car. So we called her mom, who called the police. The policemen got there and he was very nice. We told them the story and what was taken. I think we were both a little freaked out. Then Sunday comes and we go out to lunch together and then we went back to her house to do homework. She realizes that her mom has her car which has her backpack in it. So, we go get her car and give her mom her car. Chelsea's backpack isn't in her car. So we go back to her house and search and search. Its not there it took us a minute to realize that her backpack was taken out of her car. Everything gone. On a weekend with so much homework and so many tests in the upcoming week. Wow it just seems that when it rains it pours!

Tradition!

This has been going on for awhile now. When ever Sam comes over to my house if even for a little bit she works out. This started about a year ago. Oh this is Sam Heilman by the way. She goes all out. Sweatband and legs weights, it the whole thing. I have one special thing she likes to work out on. It is a thing called a stepper you just basically step. This is sometimes very funny. Especially when its like one or two in the morning when we are so completely out of it because we are so tired. Here is some pics of what it looks like.

The Mask...

We all wear a mask if we want to or not. If we aren't trying to show our hurt or our failure we wear it. We bottle it all up until one day when you just have to break down and cry. The tears fall for hours with nothing to stop them. Like nothing in the world will ever be the same anymore. You lose someone or let them slip right through your fingers and out of sight. No where to be found. There lost in your mind. Everything you say or do reminds you of them and how they held you so close. Its like your body was a puzzle piece that fits right into theirs. When that piece is gone what are we to do. We feel like we aren't whole anymore, something is always gone. You stare into space blindly wondering if they will ever want you again. If they will ever want to pull you in close and never let go. Your mind never stops like its going to explode. Life is so confusing how do we live through it all? We wear the mask that grins and lies it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes.

The Theatre Is The Life For Me!

Today was the first day i actually got to get on stage and do something. It was the first play practice were we got to move around and do things. It felt so amazing to be out there doing something. You can be as stupid as you want and no one will care. You get to be somewhere else, Something else. Get away from reality if only for moments at a time. When I'm in stage i feel like if i were floating on a cloud and that nothing could bring me down. Its a place where you don't have to feel like you need to fit in, its a place to stand out. Have fun and not be stressed! Its why i do theatre its my passion and i love it! <3

Those Songs :)

There are just so many songs out there. But there are only some of them that you can listen to them forever and never get tired of them. One of these songs for me is Taking Chances the Glee version. I probably listen to it like 20 times a day. It's just so good. The words are really inspiring. I mean words like what do you say to jumping off the edge. The music is telling me to get out there and have adventures. Always live life to the fullest, never let there be a dull moment. Also never regret things because they happen for a REASON.

Questions???

We all strive to reach it.
We all want it in ours lives.
But Why?
What for?
This thing I'm talking about is LOVE. It drives us all crazy, and we make it that way. It's like this, once you "fall in love with someone'' its hard to let them go. But what is love and why does it make us like this? Some people are just to afraid to fall in love because of what can happen. It can be the greatest thing in the world or it can hurt you forever. Others are just to afraid to even talk to the person. They stare at each other in the halls and never talk. They avoid each other. But what game is this that they play? Do they do it cause they like each other? Or because, it keeps life interesting? Girls just play the guessing game, like what are they thinking now, do you think they like me? We constantly ask that.
But Why?
What for?
Just because we want LOVE in our lives?

The Game...

Today was the first day in a very long time that I have lost the game. What is the game you ask? It's a mind game. If you think about the game you lose the game. The fun part is that when you lose it you have to tell everyone. So, today I posted it on facebook, because I can't cheat. I have this feeling that there might be some people mad at me. But, that is all fun and part of the game. So, if you haven't started playing the game you should start now!! :)

Change

What happened? How did we grow apart? Things just aren't the way they used to be. We had fun all last year together. So many fun memories and all the secret telling. You were there through thick and thin.There was nothing or no one that could separate us. Everything seemed fine this summer for the longest time. Then we got back to school. Am I just not there anymore to you? I can see that you may want to be my friend, but we were best friends. I would give anything to have things how they were last year, but life isn't fair. So we just have to grow up and move on.

Spring Cleaning...

Five hours later and my room is done. Just my room alone. My room isn't messy or anything just needed a lot needed done to it. My mom re-did it two years ago and we never hung stuff on my walls. So, what happened was I got a lot of junk and we threw it all out. It looks so much better now. There is a place for everything and even more room. Not sure I want more room though because my room is already big. Besides cleaning it we hung things up. :) My walls got these sticky things. One of them says "Live Laugh Love." The other one says "A little Laugh A little Promise A little Hope." I think they are really cool, but that's just me. I'm so glad it's done!

Life Is Full Of Suprises

Waiting on Wednesday night was like torture. I wanted to know if i had made Cataclysmic, so bad. It's the waiting game that gets me every time. Then I go back and think about my audition and if i thought i had done my best or not. So, on Thursday I went to check the list in the morning. As to my surprise I did make Cat. The excitement I had is to hard to explain. Now it means two a week practices and early mornings. It is so worth it though!